From me to you

We all have that person we would take back in a second no matter how much they hurt us

Instead of "lol" try saying "lsimhbiwfefmtalol" - laughing silently in my head because it wasn't funny enough for me to actually laugh out loud

I did this song to every little girl, every lady, every female who hasn't been told the truth, and the truth is you are the single most beautiful thing to ever happen to this world - Lil Wayne about "How To Love"

I don't think I was every trying to kill myself. But I knew if I went too far I wouldn't care - Demi Lovato

I need to stop giving people second chances who I know fucking deep down don't deserve them

We were just a couple of kids but we really loved each other, didn't we?

Where are you? I am so sorry. I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight

"Who are you?" Asked the Caterpillar. "I hardly know, Sir, I know who I was, but I think I must have changed."

Will you miss me when I'm gone?

I need someone new in my life

You'll never know how much I wanted to kiss you at this moment

Something always brings me back to you

The spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly

We will always bicker. There will always be those rough edges. But, we are pulled together, we have something the other needs

You are honestly the most wonderful person I've ever met

I think being in love is that you can be with someone, and fight with them, but know that they'll always stay

I know that I want to wake up with you next to me forever. I know that there's nothing I'd rather do than kiss you on a Sunday morning, and make you a cup of tea because that's what makes me happy. And I know that if everything else in the world is gone, it would be ok as long as you were there and I could make you happy. I know that I'd do anything for you. I know that I'd die for you. I know that I love you, I love you more than anything in the whole world. I know that no matter what happens in my whole life, it won't matter if you aren't there too

We should stay like this forever

It took one look and forever laid out in front of me

I knew it was going to take me where I needed to go

Ron and Hermione's relationship makes me believe in love. It is by far one of the most beautiful love stories ever. It takes them a while to get there, but in the end they are together. There relationship isn't sudden or new, they loved each other long before they were even together. I want someone to love me the way Ron loves Hermione

(mondays letter) Day 26: The last person you made a pinky promise to
Nicole
We used to make thousands of pinky promises when we were friends, but we never stuck to them. I think we thought that in order to have a friendship there has to be promises and pinky promises but if there's no truth behind them then there's no friendship.
I'm sorry I broke my promises, it's like one of Carrie Underwood's lyrics - I'm not sorry that it's over but for the way we let it end

(tuesdays letter) Day 27: The friendliest person you knew for only a day
I don't even know your name
I met you at a bus stop when I was younger and I still remember you. You made me promise that I would learn to drive one day because it was the biggest regret of your life, and then we were joking around because you must have had an easy life if that was your biggest regret

(wednesdays letter) Day 28: Someone that changed your life
Emma
I met you in school and all that school drama drove us apart but by coincidence we met back up and since then my life has changed drastically. I no longer have all that drama in my life that Nicole used to bring, instead of dreading going out I'm looking forward to going out and meeting new people and slowly but surely you're assuring me that I deserve a good guy in my life and I shouldn't settle for anything less

(thursdays letter) Day 29: That person that you want to tell everything to but too afraid to
Alan
I'm dying to tell you about my past and why I have trust issues with people but to be honest I'm having so much fun with you I'm just scared that if I do tell you everything that you might run and I don't know how I would handle that

(todays letter, also the last letter!!) Day 30: Your reflection in the mirror
I see a girl who's came a long way and to be honest feel like a totally different person to how I was when I was 18. When I was 18 I was shy and didn't believe that I deserved the best.
People can't see the pain, they think that I've got rid of it, but when I look in my eyes I can still see that pain, I've just spent years hiding it that now it's become second nature.
I see a girl who is slowly starting to believe that she does deserve the whole world and is starting to dream again about the future. A girl who doesn't trust straight away, but when you earn her trust you earn it completely and she would never hide anything from you, but if you destroy that trust you'll never get it back.
I see a girl who has confidence, who has matured so much, who knows who she is and what she wants and understands that all that pain she had to go through when she was younger brought her here and shaped her into the person she is today.
I see a girl who's starting to feel happy again, who's starting to smile for real again, and lastly I see a girl who has enough confidence to start to think about trusting someone with her heart again

And now I don't know how much more that I can take, I'm breaking at the cracks and everything goes black, it's another heart attack and I can't handle that

I know that I'll get through this I'm feeling stronger somehow, I got my feet back on the ground and I'm turning around and I'll be everything you always said that I could be if only you'd be waiting right here for me patiently

Whenever I would take you back my heart was filled with love and I wiped those tears and I will laugh, if only I could make it last

That's the thing you'll come to understand about me, I have an unfailing ability to destroy the things and the people I love

You know I know how to make them stop and stare

Watching you watching me I go all out

You got me watching now, got my attention now

I can't help it I like tp party, it's genetic, it's electrifying. Just wind me up and watch me go where I stop nobody knows. I'm a good excuse to be a bad influence on you

They wanna go home I ask them why, it's daylight not night, they might need a break from all the real life it gets to be too much sometimes

I'm off to see the doctor I hope she has a cure, I hope she makes me better. What does that even mean?

Find me here and speak to me, I want to feel you, I need to hear you. You are the light that's leading me to the place where I'll find peace again

You are the strength that keeps me walking, the hope that keeps me trusting, the life to my soul and my purpose. You're my everything

How can I stand here and not be moved by you?

Would you tell me how it could be any better than this?

You calm the storms and you give me rest. You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall. You still my heart and you take my breath away

You're all I want, you're all I need, you're everything

Weeping may endure for a night but joy comes in the morning

Somehow I know that there's a place up above with no hurt and struggling free of all atrocities and suffering because I feel the unconditional love from one who cares enough for me to erase all my burdens and let me be free to fly like a bird, take to the sky, I need you now Lord carry me high don't let the world break me tonight I need the strength of you by my side, sometimes this life can be so cold I pray you'll come and carry me home

Can we recover? Will the world ever be a place of peace and harmony? With no war and with no brutality. If we loved each other we would find victory

He said I'll never forsake you or leave you alone

Keep your head up to the sky, with God's love you'll survive

I need the strength of you to survive

Best of all I've got my baby, he's mighty fine and he's all mine and nothing's gonna bring me down

Do you think of me?

After the rain in the lonely hours he haunts me calling out again and again

It's a fire I cannot put out

I'm learning that somethings I can't go without and one of them is you

Now I walk these streets like a stranger in my hometown, I learn the language and form the words when I speak. But he changed me, I'm his ghost since you came around and now I count the hours in the days in the weeks

And his books they breathe a reaosn and now I wanna know

And you with your newborn eyes have you ever loved a man like I love him? Do you hurt but still feel alive like never before?

I can't go without him

Don't it always seem to go that you don't know what you got til it's gone

Why do you want me?

You know that I could use somebody, someone like you and all you know and how you speak

I know that I could use somebody - someone like you

I hope it's gonna make you notice someone like me

When you hold me like this that's when my heart skips a beat, I know I should but I can't leave it alone

Nothing really matters when we're dancing

(tuesdays letter) Day 20:The one that broke your heart the hardest
Craig
You broke my heart the hardest because you were the first one to break my heart and like they say, the first cut is the deepest. I can still remember standing in the middle of my room that same day and crying so hard my neighbor came to see if everything was alright, I didn't understand the pain I was in, how could I be in so much pain and still be alive? It was a pain I had never felt before and prayed that I would never feel again.
My mum and my sister spent days in bed with me, I didn't want to get up, I didn't want to face the world, I just wanted to sleep until the pain went away, but looking back, does that kind of pain ever go away? Or do you just get used to it until it's just a niggle at the back of your mind that you remember every once in a while?
I didn't understand how I felt back then, everything was new and horrible but I think I was embarrased, I had told everyone what a great guy you were and you went and done that.
I think of you sometimes, normally when some guy does the same thing you did to me and I have to remind myself of how horrible it felt at the time but I'm still standing, I'm still breathing, and if I survived that kind of pain then I know I can survive anything

(todays letter) Day 21:Someone you judged by their first impression
Emma
I remember when I first saw you, you glared at me as though I was a nasty disease you didn't want anywhere near you. You never spoke to me and when you were speaking to the group you would never look at me I always felt left out by you, wondering what I had done to upset you so much.
But then we were left by ourselves in class and were forced to speak to each other and I'm glad we did becaused within 2 minutes we were laughing and joking and swapping numbers and adding each other on facebook, turns out you were just like me, shy when you meet other people and not really knowing how to act around new people but once you get to know them you're a completely different person.
You're one of my closest friends now, in and out of college, and I feel comfortable talking to you about anything. I'm glad all our friends had ditched us that day because I really enjoy our friendship and our inside jokes - John's sexy hair, the ghost of margaret and searching for the Pringle family in Canada, how hard could it be? - none of which anyone find remotely funny but to us they are hilarious. And I love having you in my life

Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know; maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop

I wish there were a rulebook for intimacy. Some kind of guide to tell you when you've crossed the line. It would be nice if you could see it coming, and I don't know how you fit it on a map. You take it where you can get it, and keep it as long as you can. And as for rules, maybe there are none. Maybe the rules of intimacy are something you have to define for yourself

I've heard that it's possible to grow up - I've just never met anyone who's actually done it. Without parents to defy, we break the rules we make for ourselves. We throw tantrums when things don't go our way, we whisper secrets with our best friends in the dark, we look for comfort where we can find it, and we hope - against all logic, against all experience. Like children, we never give up hope

I know I'm not a lot of things that you've gone for in the past - I know, but I would never leave you. I would never hurt you. And I will never stop loving you

If you knew this was your last day on Earth, how would you wanna spend it?

Do you know when to walk away? Do you know when not to take less than you deserve?

Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breathe deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more

Pick me.
Choose me.
Love me.

Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass. And when the dam bursts, all you can do is swim. The world of pretend is a cage, not a cocoon. We can only lie to ourselves for so long. We are tired, we are scared, denying it doesn't change the truth. Sooner or later we have to put aside our denial and face the world. Head on, guns blazing. De Nile. It's not just a river in Egypt. It's a freaking ocean. So how do you keep from drowning in it?

You were like coming up for fresh air. It's like I was drowning and you saved me

What was I to you? The girl you screwed to get over being screwed?

I have an aunt who whenever she poured anything for you she would say "Say When." My aunt would say "Say when" and of course we never did. We don't say when because there's something about the possibility of more. More tequila, more love, more anything. More is better

When it comes to relationships, maybe we're all in glass houses, and shoudn't throw stones. Because you can never really know. Some people are settling down, some are settling and some people refuse to settle for anything less than butterflies

How many guys do we ever hit it off with? Very few, and even if we do, those relationships don't last, and even if they did men die first, so we're right back where we started

The thing people forget is how good it can feel when you finally set secrets free. Whether good or bad, at least they're out in the open, like it or not. And once your secrets are out in the open, you don't have to hide behind them anymore. The problem with secrets is even when you think you're in control, you're not

That's the problem with secrets - like misery they love company. They pile up and up until they take over everything, until you don't have room for anything else, until you're so full of secrets you feel like you're going to burst

Just because people do horrible things, doesn't mean they're horrible people

And if we're lucky, we realize, in the face of everything, in the face of life, the true dream is being able to dream at all

It's important to tell the people you love how much you love them while they can hear you

Okay, here it is, your choice...it's simple, her or me, and I'm sure she is really great. But I love you, in a really, really, big pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me. Choose me. Love me

I love you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you

I want to marry you. I want to have your kids and build a house together

(fridays letter)Day 16: Someone that's not in your state/country
Ross
I hate what your job, but at the same time, I love it, and I have so much respect for you. I don't get to see you quite as often as I'd like but I love your phone calls, and I will literally drop everything when I see your name flash up on my phone.
You've known me since I was born and you've always been like a big brother to me.
Keep safe over there, and I'll see you when you get back

(todays letter)Day 17: Someone from your childhood
Karra
We met when we were 3, both riding our bikes around the square. You were the mad one, I was the quiet one, but I think that's why we got on so well, we each brought out each others personalities, you brought me out my shell and I calmed you down a little.
We started to drift apart when we went to high school, but I loved knowing that you knew that I was still there for you whenever you needed me.
Life has changed so much since we were children and we've both lived very different lives, but whenever we see each other it's as though no time has passed at all, there's no awkwardness at all and that's what I love about our friendship, no matter how much time goes by and no matter which roads we walk down, we'll always be there for each other if we need each other.